Wednesday, August 10, 2011

Help You Find Your Wings

My Sweet Boy,

Happy Second Birthday!! I am starting this letter to you several weeks early because there is so much I want to say, and it must be utterly perfect. Today you can't even read these words, and if you could you simply wouldn't comprehend their meaning. Years from now you will understand the message, but not the heart in which I write. It won't be until you are a father that you fully understand the depth of my love for you on this day.

Two years ago today my world was rocked to its core when the doctor handed me a precious baby boy....a boy! I knew nothing about snakes, snails and puppy dog tails. I was hopelessly clueless, but I have learned a few things about little boys these past two years. For example, I now know more about sports than I ever thought possible. In fact, ESPN is our default channel (which your daddy loves.) We can't go anywhere, and I mean ANYWHERE without a ball. We even carry a basketball, football and baseball in the car at all times. There is also a batting helmet, bat and glove in the van under your seat. We spend hours upon hours a week singing "Take Me Out To The Ballgame," and a few other "Ball Songs" I have made up to keep you entertained.

I have also learned that little boys love LOVE cars, trucks and anything that makes noise. Oh, and don't forget bodily functions. You already laugh at toots and talk about poop. Silly little man!!

As you've grown sweet boy, I've learned a few other things as well. Our first year together was spent learning all about solid foods, getting you to sleep (a work in progress) crawling, walking, talking and a million other physical things. Meanwhile, you were teaching me a thousand lessons in living.

No longer do I have a little bundle to cuddle and care for his every whimper. I now have a toddler with a strong will and a mind of his own. No longer am I focused on teaching you infant things. Now I am eager to show you how to count, how to spell, how to read. Above all Sweet Boy, I want to teach you to love.

I pray with you every night, but do you know I pray for you as well? I pray for normal things like safety, friends, and health but I also pray for your soul. I ask God to make you a man of character and strength, a man after his own heart. I ask him to make you bold and strong yet merciful and kind. I ask that he will fill your heart with dreams and give the determination to make them succeed. Above all I pray for your heart, after all it is the well spring of life. And a piece of mine breaks today as you turn another year older.

There is song that I want to share with you this day that has in so many ways become my prayer for you Sweet Boy:

It's only for a moment you are mine to hold
The plans that heaven has for you
Will all too soon unfold
So many different prayers I'll pray
For all that you might do
But most of all I'll want to know
You're walking in the truth
And If I never told you
I want you to know
As I watch you grow

I pray that God would fill your heart with dreams
And that faith gives you the courage
To dare to do great things
I'm here for you whatever this life brings
So let my love give you roots
And help you find your wings

May passion be the wind
That leads you through your days
And may conviction keep you strong
Guide you on your way
May there be many moments
That make your life so sweet
Oh, but more than memories

I pray that God would fill your heart with dream
And that faith gives you the courage to dare to do great thing
I'm here for you whatever this life brings,
So let me love give you roots and help you find your dreams.

It's not living if you don't reach for the sky
I'll have tears as you take off
But I'll cheer as you fly

I can't even allow myself to think about the day you spread your wings, yet I see it so vividly. There will be a million tears between now and then, a thousand scraped knees, and a hundred life lessons. There will birthday parties, baseball games, first days of school and first cars. There will girlfriends and eventually a wife. There will a lifetime of precious moments and "I love yous."

There will joy and pain, laughter and sorrow, sunshine and rain. That is the dance we call life, and I am so honored to teach you the steps.

Happy Second Birthday Sweet Boy. Momma Loves you!!

1 comment:

  1. OMG! Tears are dripping off my chin! Next time, put a warning with the title. SO VERY WELL SAID.