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I'm Losing It

Well ya'll, I decided to take the plunge. I'm losing...or at least trying!  That's right, attempt number 370 million to shed some pounds.  I'm not trying to be super sexy mom or anything, but I'd like to at least get rid of the double chin.  Anyone with me?

I know our outward appearances don't matter.  I know that "charm is deceptive and beauty is fleeting." I know I'm "fearfully and wonderfully made."  I know all of that, yet I'm not happy with myself.

Obviously, I struggle with my weight and how I feel about my appearance.  I've tried to convince myself that it doesn't matter, that I'm in a busy season, that I'm a working mom, that I'm putting too much pressure on myself.  I've tried to convince myself of those things, but I've failed.

The truth is -I don't like the way I look, but that's only part of the problem.  It's somehow deeper than that.  I don't like being out of control.  I don't like being lazy.  I don't like making excuses. I don't like pushing the limits.

So, I'm taking control.  I'm not sure where this journey will go or how it will end.  I don't even have a goal weight in mind.  Clearly, I want to lose weight, but I also want to feel good about myself.  I want to be in control of my health.  I want to have energy.  I want all the benefits that come with living a healthy lifestyle.

I don't just want to do this.  I need to do it.  I'm still in my 20s.  I'm done having babies.  I don't want my kids to be aware of my struggles (especially Ellie)  I want to have energy to play with them.  I could list a million more reasons why I need to become healthier, but I'll save you the hassle of reading the obvious.

I don't want this to be a long, drawn out process or a "how to" type of blog topic. I don't want the pressure of "weigh ins" or the dreaded documentation of it. However, I do plan to post about my journey, mainly for me.  Who knows? Maybe you will get something out of it too.

Either way, expect Mondays to be about my week.  My ups, my downs, the funny moments, how I'm making it work, or how it's not working at all.  Sometimes I'll be happy.  Sometimes I'll be frusterated. Whatever the case might be, I plan on doing this through the end of the year, cause it's time.

Thanks for being a part of my exciting, no pressure added, fun, frustrating,  and hopefully successful journey.


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