Wednesday, December 17, 2014

Keeping It Real

Remember when I mentioned yesterday that I was feeling under the weather?  Yeah, I was home sick today. That makes my third day home sick in three weeks.  The first two were for the kids, but I HATE missing work.  It makes me feel like such a slacker, and being so new, it can't help my reputation.  Nonetheless, I am blessed to FINALLY have a job where taking care of my family and myself is possible.  I am blessed.

So, back to being sick.  I was up all night and then slept until noon.  Minus a pounding headache, I'm starting to feel human again.  After a shower, I snuggled up on the couch with a cup of coffee and my Bible.  I try to have my quiet time every morning, but it feels so rushed.  Today I took my time, and asked the Lord to be with me as I reflected on the past year,

After I had Eli, I spent a great deal of time depressed from the exhaustion.  I've spent this past year (2014) overwhelmed.  It's a different kind of emotion, but it's equally as exhausting.  The worst part is that I find myself striving rather than immersing myself in the blessings of this season.  I'm always trying to find the perfect schedule, keep the perfect house, or have the perfect kids.  Ya'll it can't be done, but what it can do is rob me of my joy in this season.

I spent a lot of time in prayer today over this very issue, but words seem to escape me right now.  Maybe I will attempt to put it into a post later, but right now I just want to encourage you wherever you are right now.  I hope to get back to blogging in the new year, but more than just documenting our lives, I hope I can encourage worn out Mommas on this journey of motherhood.

There's too much pretending out there.  Ya'll, this is hard.  It's exhausting.  It's frustrating, and I don't know about you, but I don't need another blog with tips on house-keeping, baby-weaning, sleep training or crafting.  I need a sisterhood of women who are willing to be open and honest about this season of life.  I need laugh at the audacity of it all, and most importantly, I need to know that I'm not alone.  Here's to enjoying the rest of the season, and keeping it real in 2015!

1 comment:

  1. Morgan I always enjoy reading your posts. Thank you for sharing. Trust me, you are not alone. Merry Christmas! :-) Brandi Gosnell