I'm Back

I’m back, ya’ll.  It has been a long time since I have posted and for numerous reasons.  I just couldn’t bring myself to write because sometimes life is hard, and it’s a delicate balance trying keep personal things personal without coming across as fake by sharing only the highlight reel.  I have a problem pretending that life is all sunshine and roses when it’s anything but that.  However, I don’t feel the need to broadcast every struggle I encounter on the world-wide web.  

I love this blog and the memories that it holds.  I love seeing my babies grow as I click through the pages, and I often find great comfort in connecting with the raw emotions of my past.  However, as the years have passed, I am becoming less confortable with being so transparent in a public space.  For the past few months I have struggled with what this blog should look like and whether or not it should continue to even exist. Just when I think about shutting it down, I start to click though the pages and become instantly grateful that I have kept this little memory book for our family.

I don’t want to write if I can’t be real or if I have to put on a façade, but some things are just not meant for the world to know.  Finding a balance between the two is a struggle for me, so I just quit writing.  I have missed it so much, but I needed to step back and reevaluate the purpose of this blog, and here is what I have concluded. 

I started writing to keep a little memory log of our family.  There are ups and downs in every journey, and it’s ok to reference them.  However, every detail does not need to be documented nor does every thought that crosses my mind.  I can share the good without completely exposing the bad, and likewise, I can reference the bad without blotting out the good.

All of that to say, this blog will continue to exist.  However, the posts will likely be in a synopsis format with highlights from our family life along with brief mentions of our struggles and maybe even a few personal thoughts. 

Now is as good a time as any to get back in the habit of writing since we have so many fun things upcoming with the holidays upon us.  Thanks to modern technology and the use of time stamping, I will hopefully be able to go back and fill in the missing highlights and memories.

I’m kinda excited about getting started again, even if I am 8 months behind!